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Hikari Hoshi ([personal profile] illuminatings) wrote2010-07-04 03:42 am

157 -- [locked from hostiles, Tetha Police, etc.]

[ There's a small hiss of static before Hoshi comes into view. It's nighttime, but she's dressed in a yukata, sitting in a meditative position. Her eyes are closed and she seems to be playing a disk quietly, one that sounds like a raging waterfall.

If one can pick up on it, she's muttering a concentration spell to help her meditate. It sounds like joko nihongo, however.

Wish to bother her? ]

( OOC: Joko Nihongo is Old Japanese, and for those around her, you can have comment logs. =D )

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 09:22 am (UTC)(link)
A short ways away from the stone on which Hoshi sat, a more typical seat - one of the many normal ones of the D'Ango resort - held a rather frustrated friend.

A friend who felt like she had not done enough in a time of need... Even if, in another, she had risen to the call, it didn't feel like enough.

By the time she'd reached Finitevus' lab, he was gone; all she'd found was a few CDs of experimental data, and a research binder that she'd hastily grabbed a copy of. She wasn't even willing to go into those, though...

She hadn't really done anything useful to stop him, in the end, and that was depressing.
Edited 2010-07-04 09:32 (UTC)

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 09:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ Unfortunately, Hoshi cannot say much to comfort you, Pidonus. She's deep in a trance-like state, so has effectively separated her spiritual form from her physical form. The only signs she's still there at least physically is light sounds of breathing.

This method helps her a lot when she's healing. ]
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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
Pidonus looked towards Hoshi. At least this effort had been successful. Hoshi was pretty much fully recovered, and for once, that was more than just physically. Getting her to the hot springs, keeping her away from the war for just a while... She knew DATS would frown on it, but she felt that it was the only way to keep Hoshi safe at a time like this. Especially with the threat of an attack on any DATS base at any time now.

And now, there she was - fully in her meditative state. Pidonus wondered how the sounds of the waterfall helped, but questioning probably wouldn't help - particularly not now.

Perhaps the best thing to do would be to try meditating herself...

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 09:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ While her shaman is occupied, Reiko flies over to Pidonus and looks at the succubus while in her apparition state. ]

Meditation like this helps Hoshi-dono. Why do you not try it out and see for yourself?

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:02 am (UTC)(link)
Pidonus blinked, looking towards Reiko.

"... Perhaps..."

A light 'click' marked the first heel of Pidonus' boot striking the ground, as she started to stand.

"... But what is true meditation? It's.... Not something familiar to me, I'm sorry..."

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ Reiko thinks about it for a moment or two before nodding to herself. ]

First, change into whatever you feel like is the most comfortable, then sit just as how Hoshi-dono is. After that, I will instruct you, Pidonus.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:19 am (UTC)(link)
Pidonus paused for a second, thinking about that question... Before simply walking towards Hoshi, taking a few seconds to observe how she was seated - not that easy in the loose robes of Hoshi's yukata - before moving to a rock several paces away.

As she started down, the only change in outfit Reiko could observe was the heels of the Succubus' boots disappearing. Perhaps Pid simply wasn't paying attention to the outfit - wouldn't be odd - or perhaps it really was more comfortable for her than anything else she could think of somehow...

Quickly, one gloved hand dusted the ground beneath her a little, removing several larger rocks. Then, finally, Pidonus sat down. Another ponderous, slow minute passed as she carefully shifted her legs - watching out for her skirt, pulling it this way then that, shifting her weight a little one way than another - until finally, her legs were crossed in the same pattern as Hoshi's.

Carefully, Pidonus leaned forward just a bit, resting each hand on one knee, silently nodding to Reiko to represent that she was - finally! - ready. Maybe. Sort of.

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Reiko flies over to Pidonus and watched her get ready. The yukata, to her, would really be more of an ideal choice for something like this, but she digresses. She watched Pidonus before nodding. ]

Now... Think of a happy place, your ideal location. Once you envision it, breathe in and then out. Do it until you feel completely at peace. The waterfall sounds should help out greatly.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
Pidonus paused at the idea of the happpy place, her breathing not taking any control.

Her first thought disturbed her immediately, thinking of places that she would once have considered home... When she was a denizen of the Netherworld and a servant to someone who she now understood as the enemy for all she could be.

Then came the Digital World... Where the only places she'd been really comfortable were varying bedrooms, and the warehouse where she was in total control... Surely she had more to herself than to default to that, but...

Could it really be that no place felt truly happy to her now?

"... Mabye I really am..."

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe you really are what, Pidonus?

[ Hoshi's limbs fall limp as she's completely at ease. Reiko giggles quietly at that before nodding. ]

Go ahead, tell me.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
"... Just a monster. The only places I can think of are places of bed, or places where I otherwise had control over others, unfairly taken..."

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 12:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Then think about bed, if it is the safer alternative, Pidonus.

[ Reiko sits in the air, floating every so often. ]

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-04 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
The succubus paused. "... But, to realize that a place that, to me, serves such a... Dominant purpose, is the first that I think of when..."

She sighed, slowly starting to visualize the place... Trying to avoid thinking of what she'd do with it given the chance, and reminding herself mentally that she couldn't want it.

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Do not say any more. Try to calm down and rest your heart. It must be heavy.

[ However, a small realization dawns the old Angelic Entity. ]

Would it be better to envision Hoshi-dono with you?

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Pidonus paused, looking forward loosely. That, indeed, was true. Most of her existence was now something she regretted, and she still felt that she had to prove she was better...

... And then came precisely the wrong word choice, as Pidonus "eeped" audibly at the tease, suddenly losing her balance and falling flat onto her back.

"D-did you really have to say that?!"

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Here, have a completely teasing laugh. ]

Your expression was quite priceless, Pidonus.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
As Pidonus rolled a little, ending up splayed on the ground, she didn't say a single word, simply glaring at Reiko as she started to get back up and try this a second time.

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 09:14 pm (UTC)(link)
You know, Hoshi-dono gives me that same look when I tease her.

[ Continuing this? Yes, she would. ]

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-07-05 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Settling into the position a second time, Pidonus snapped, "For entirely different reasons, I'd presume."

She sighed. "Not something I want to be thinking about, though..."

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"Very well, I will decease," Reiko said, smiling.

"Continue, please."

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Pidonus nodded, her emotions still a little flustered, breathing. This time, she tried to simply picture a quiet, waterfall glade. Somehow, that felt kind of right to her somehow...

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
And Reiko continued to observe Pidonus' methods and making sure that she could very well do it. She also made sure to make mental notes to give to her lord, too.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Finally, after a few minutes, Pidonus' face started to cool, as she began to feel just a little peaceful... But really only a little.

Was she really conflicting with herself, trying to picture environments devoid of a sexual context as a place where she was at peace?

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Conflict stage?" Reiko mused to herself.

"A place you feel more at home to, Pidonus," she instructed. "Picture it and go from there."

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Her eyes not opening, Pidonus replied, "But... Those places... I shouldn't associate them as peace. Bedrooms used as places of power aren't... Aren't..."

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"But, they are places you are more comfortable in, yes? Even if they are not a peaceful place, picture it and it should help you," Reiko continued to coach her on.

"You can do this."

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Pidonus paused, finally starting to let herself picture a relatively ordinary bedroom. Not any she'd used, just a bedroom. One that was somehow kind of familiar, but that she knew wasn't like any she'd used in her life.

Her breathing started to steady, though there was still some clear discomfort at the idea of this being her peaceful place...

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Reiko knew it wasn't the most appetizing of places, considering Pidonus' nature, but she believed in her. And, that belief would hopefully make things better for her. She kept floating in the air while also checking up on how Hoshi was doing.

She would cease communicating with Pidonus for now, unless if she needed the help of the Angelic Entity.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Pidonus tried to calm, trying to get past the conflict...

After a few minutes, though, Reiko would hear a meek voice. "What... What's inner peace, really?"

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[identity profile] soul-on-light.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
"Inner peace is when you feel at ease with yourself and channel it into positive energy," Reiko explained, looking at Pidonus.

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[identity profile] pidonus.livejournal.com 2010-08-15 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Pidonus' eyes opened a little.

"... What if I... What if I don't want to be myself? I want to try and escape what I am, but... Is that even possible?"